Lost Girl fic: Share You (Bo/Lauren)
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seriousficTitle: Share You
Fandom: Lost Girl
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 1,537
Characters/Pairings: Bo/Lauren
Spoilers: 2x06
Summary: Lauren tells Bo her story. Bo tells her the ending.
For once, a Kenzi scheme panned out. After a night of Ryan Gosling movies and shots, Nadia didn't seem like the end of the world. It wasn’t like Bo had ever been a one-woman gal… or one-anything gal. The real issue was that Lauren had deceived her, and she'd had a good reason before. Bo just had to quit being a drama queen and interrogate… ask her about it.
Not that the Ash would go for that. "Is this a human custom? Do you go to other people's houses and ask to play with their dogs? Because from my perspective, that's rather—"
Bo had planned not to burn any bridges, but… well… fuck that. "Shut your face, you pretentious, self-satisfied fratboy! I'm going to see her and if you don't like it, think about the last succubus the Light Fae pissed off. She was my mother and she turned your predecessor into abstract art. By the way, nobody liked her. Me? Half your Fae owe me and you're still seen as the old Ash's replacement goldfish. You sure you've got the mojo to come at me? Go ahead. Think of some way to hurt me or punish Lauren. I'll be through with you by the time you're done being distracted by your stupid haircut. No, it's not trendy."
He was still looking for a mirror as she went to Lauren's lab.
***
The way Lauren looked at her broke Bo's heart. Scared and anxious and hopeful. After all this time, hopeful. Bo kissed her immediately, before she could even get a word in edgewise, stepping back before she put a rumple in Lauren's lab coat (they were definitely taking that with them).
Lauren recovered quickly. "Bo, what are you doing here? If the Ash catches you—"
"Don't worry, I asked. He didn't have any objection." Bo held up the box. "The Morgana told me about Nadia. This is a cure, so get your things, we're leaving. You can explain to me on the way home."
"There's something I have to do first."
***
Lauren moved in long, practiced strides around the lab, like it was all a dance she'd been rehearsing for. Her hands shook. When she opened the box, one of them slipped down to her side. Bo took it almost by rote. With a squeeze, Lauren calmed down. "It's beautiful," Lauren said.
"It's blood. Gross."
"Stygian blood." Lauren held up the vial. "I do owe you an explanation, Bo, thank you for being so patient. Just give me a moment… I never thought it'd be so small…"
Bo looked at the longing in Lauren's eyes and wondered if she'd see the same in a mirror. It seemed like a pressing question. "Take all the time you need."
***
Because she was Lauren, Lauren ran tests on it first. Putting it under a microscope, running it through a cyclotron, inserting drops of it into various test tubes. Everything turned the right color. "I didn't know I was gay before Nadia," Lauren said as she worked, Bo staying out of her way to make it that much easier for Lauren not to look at her. She knew how it worked. Some things you just had to say and get over with. "She wasn't like you, if that's what you're worried about. But she had the same kind of… grit, I guess you'd call it. She looked out for me. And when I started thinking about her that way—when I couldn't stop thinking about her—well, I told her. She just smiled at me and said 'Well, of course you are.'" Lauren hid her smile at the memory. Her voice had sounded ridiculous, a Quebec accent that was just this side of French. "I can't pull it off… she could, though."
"I'm glad you have such fond memories," Bo said unevenly.
"She was amazing. Too amazing for me to be the only one who noticed. There was a Stygian… Dark Fae royalty. He wanted Nadia for his own. One night, she came home, and she was bleeding… there were these bite marks…"
Lauren stopped working. Even lab work couldn't distract her from the memory. Bo stepped in, rubbing her arm, and Lauren leaned into the contact.
"I get the picture," Bo said.
It still took Lauren a moment to continue. She stayed in place, letting Bo's touch play over her. "Stygian bites change you. You lose your inhibitions, your morality, your memory… your soul, really. It was worse than death. Not just being killed, but living on as a stranger to herself, a slave to that freak's sick fantasies. As the change got stronger, I had to keep her sedated. I was working around the clock, trying to find anything that would just bring her back, just let me say goodbye… and the Ash came to me. The Light Fae had been following me for a long time, following my work… they do that, you know, cherry-picking humans to help incorporate the 21st century into their… medieval bullshit." Bo had never heard Lauren swear before. She stopped stroking her arm. "I had something the other candidates didn't. Desperation. They could sign me up and never have to worry about my loyalty, ever. And Nadia would be--"
Bo pulled Lauren into her arms, feeling the tears that'd been building for all this time finally break loose. How many years had Lauren held back, playing the good little human for the Light Fae? How many times had she been the stony-faced slave when she'd wanted to just have an emotion? Bo squeezed her tighter for each time. "Don't the Light Fae have rules against that?"
"Oh, yeah. Hunting limits. Like Nadia was a deer," Lauren said. Horribly, her voice didn't change at all even as her eyes turned red, tears spilling down her cheeks. Bo could see her, alone in her lab, talking over the phone, doing her work even as the torture of it all caught up to her. The Light Fae would've never realized. Never cared. "The deal was that in exchange for a lifetime of servitude, a vial of the Stygian's blood would be asked for in the next revision of the peace accord. That's the only thing that can restore Nadia. But the accord wouldn't be renewed until I was long dead. I put her into stasis, arresting the transformation. As soon as the Ash got the cure, he would wake her up, save her. I would save her. So I got used to the idea that we couldn't be together. I thought that my happiness didn't matter, as long as she looked back at me with fondness. And when I met you… Bo, I thought I would never see her again. I let go of her. That's the only reason I didn't tell you."
"It would've hurt too much," Bo realized.
Lauren wrapped her arms around Bo, putting all her human strength into the embrace. Bo could see the lab read-outs. She didn't speak Science, but "100% match" looked like a good thing.
"I wish I could choose," Lauren said. "I wish I could just know which of you to… but it doesn't work that way. I've always loved her. And I'll always love you. And everything feels so… it's like a dream where I'm falling. It's exhilarating and scary and it's all happening so fast. I can't stop to think. My heart is racing."
"Then let it keep racing." Bo kissed Lauren's head. "I don't want you to choose."
"How can I not choose? Are you leaving?" Lauren's voice broke. Despite herself, being abandoned must've still been as tender as a broken bone to her. After Nadia, how could it not be? Suddenly, Bo realized how much it must've hurt her after they'd first made love, when Bo had rejected her over something she couldn't even control. At the time, all she could see was her own pain, but Lauren's heartbreak must've been staring her in the face.
Never again. "Hey. Do you know how hard it is to get a succubus to fall in love? Once we're in, we're in. You. Are. Stuck with me."
Lauren sniffled a little, her tears finally running empty. Bo rubbed her back anyway. "Then what?"
"Well… you must've read up on Succubi. Maybe before bed, like a giant pervert?"
Lauren giggled through her tears. "Yeah. And I have a little firsthand knowledge as well."
"We're not exactly monogamous. I'm not going to keep you all to myself. Let's wake Nadia up and find out if she wants to share."
"That's… God, Bo. That's crazy."
"You've been working for elves. I sex people to death. On that scale, this is only 'watching Michael Bay movies' crazy. It's not like I want us to do a Sweded version of Wild Things. If I only get you when she's in the shower, then that's enough."
"It wouldn't be enough for me," Lauren replied. She finally pulled away, drying her eyes with the sleeve of her lab coat. Bo smiled affectionately. It was amazing that Lauren could make her feel so lustful, so absolutely turned on, and still be so adorable.
"We'll save her. We'll talk to her. Whatever happens, we'll work it out."
"Wanna hear something funny? I can't wait for you to meet her. Nadia's the only person I've ever known who can measure up to you."
"Maybe she can give me a few tips for the next time we…" Bo just smiled. Lauren dipped her head, hiding her own. And Bo touched her chin, raising it up, exposing her wonderful smile to the world. Lauren wasn't the Ash's anymore; if anything, she was Bo's. And she would never have to hide who she was or how she felt again.
It was a thought happy enough for Bo to mark with a kiss.
Fandom: Lost Girl
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 1,537
Characters/Pairings: Bo/Lauren
Spoilers: 2x06
Summary: Lauren tells Bo her story. Bo tells her the ending.
For once, a Kenzi scheme panned out. After a night of Ryan Gosling movies and shots, Nadia didn't seem like the end of the world. It wasn’t like Bo had ever been a one-woman gal… or one-anything gal. The real issue was that Lauren had deceived her, and she'd had a good reason before. Bo just had to quit being a drama queen and interrogate… ask her about it.
Not that the Ash would go for that. "Is this a human custom? Do you go to other people's houses and ask to play with their dogs? Because from my perspective, that's rather—"
Bo had planned not to burn any bridges, but… well… fuck that. "Shut your face, you pretentious, self-satisfied fratboy! I'm going to see her and if you don't like it, think about the last succubus the Light Fae pissed off. She was my mother and she turned your predecessor into abstract art. By the way, nobody liked her. Me? Half your Fae owe me and you're still seen as the old Ash's replacement goldfish. You sure you've got the mojo to come at me? Go ahead. Think of some way to hurt me or punish Lauren. I'll be through with you by the time you're done being distracted by your stupid haircut. No, it's not trendy."
He was still looking for a mirror as she went to Lauren's lab.
***
The way Lauren looked at her broke Bo's heart. Scared and anxious and hopeful. After all this time, hopeful. Bo kissed her immediately, before she could even get a word in edgewise, stepping back before she put a rumple in Lauren's lab coat (they were definitely taking that with them).
Lauren recovered quickly. "Bo, what are you doing here? If the Ash catches you—"
"Don't worry, I asked. He didn't have any objection." Bo held up the box. "The Morgana told me about Nadia. This is a cure, so get your things, we're leaving. You can explain to me on the way home."
"There's something I have to do first."
***
Lauren moved in long, practiced strides around the lab, like it was all a dance she'd been rehearsing for. Her hands shook. When she opened the box, one of them slipped down to her side. Bo took it almost by rote. With a squeeze, Lauren calmed down. "It's beautiful," Lauren said.
"It's blood. Gross."
"Stygian blood." Lauren held up the vial. "I do owe you an explanation, Bo, thank you for being so patient. Just give me a moment… I never thought it'd be so small…"
Bo looked at the longing in Lauren's eyes and wondered if she'd see the same in a mirror. It seemed like a pressing question. "Take all the time you need."
***
Because she was Lauren, Lauren ran tests on it first. Putting it under a microscope, running it through a cyclotron, inserting drops of it into various test tubes. Everything turned the right color. "I didn't know I was gay before Nadia," Lauren said as she worked, Bo staying out of her way to make it that much easier for Lauren not to look at her. She knew how it worked. Some things you just had to say and get over with. "She wasn't like you, if that's what you're worried about. But she had the same kind of… grit, I guess you'd call it. She looked out for me. And when I started thinking about her that way—when I couldn't stop thinking about her—well, I told her. She just smiled at me and said 'Well, of course you are.'" Lauren hid her smile at the memory. Her voice had sounded ridiculous, a Quebec accent that was just this side of French. "I can't pull it off… she could, though."
"I'm glad you have such fond memories," Bo said unevenly.
"She was amazing. Too amazing for me to be the only one who noticed. There was a Stygian… Dark Fae royalty. He wanted Nadia for his own. One night, she came home, and she was bleeding… there were these bite marks…"
Lauren stopped working. Even lab work couldn't distract her from the memory. Bo stepped in, rubbing her arm, and Lauren leaned into the contact.
"I get the picture," Bo said.
It still took Lauren a moment to continue. She stayed in place, letting Bo's touch play over her. "Stygian bites change you. You lose your inhibitions, your morality, your memory… your soul, really. It was worse than death. Not just being killed, but living on as a stranger to herself, a slave to that freak's sick fantasies. As the change got stronger, I had to keep her sedated. I was working around the clock, trying to find anything that would just bring her back, just let me say goodbye… and the Ash came to me. The Light Fae had been following me for a long time, following my work… they do that, you know, cherry-picking humans to help incorporate the 21st century into their… medieval bullshit." Bo had never heard Lauren swear before. She stopped stroking her arm. "I had something the other candidates didn't. Desperation. They could sign me up and never have to worry about my loyalty, ever. And Nadia would be--"
Bo pulled Lauren into her arms, feeling the tears that'd been building for all this time finally break loose. How many years had Lauren held back, playing the good little human for the Light Fae? How many times had she been the stony-faced slave when she'd wanted to just have an emotion? Bo squeezed her tighter for each time. "Don't the Light Fae have rules against that?"
"Oh, yeah. Hunting limits. Like Nadia was a deer," Lauren said. Horribly, her voice didn't change at all even as her eyes turned red, tears spilling down her cheeks. Bo could see her, alone in her lab, talking over the phone, doing her work even as the torture of it all caught up to her. The Light Fae would've never realized. Never cared. "The deal was that in exchange for a lifetime of servitude, a vial of the Stygian's blood would be asked for in the next revision of the peace accord. That's the only thing that can restore Nadia. But the accord wouldn't be renewed until I was long dead. I put her into stasis, arresting the transformation. As soon as the Ash got the cure, he would wake her up, save her. I would save her. So I got used to the idea that we couldn't be together. I thought that my happiness didn't matter, as long as she looked back at me with fondness. And when I met you… Bo, I thought I would never see her again. I let go of her. That's the only reason I didn't tell you."
"It would've hurt too much," Bo realized.
Lauren wrapped her arms around Bo, putting all her human strength into the embrace. Bo could see the lab read-outs. She didn't speak Science, but "100% match" looked like a good thing.
"I wish I could choose," Lauren said. "I wish I could just know which of you to… but it doesn't work that way. I've always loved her. And I'll always love you. And everything feels so… it's like a dream where I'm falling. It's exhilarating and scary and it's all happening so fast. I can't stop to think. My heart is racing."
"Then let it keep racing." Bo kissed Lauren's head. "I don't want you to choose."
"How can I not choose? Are you leaving?" Lauren's voice broke. Despite herself, being abandoned must've still been as tender as a broken bone to her. After Nadia, how could it not be? Suddenly, Bo realized how much it must've hurt her after they'd first made love, when Bo had rejected her over something she couldn't even control. At the time, all she could see was her own pain, but Lauren's heartbreak must've been staring her in the face.
Never again. "Hey. Do you know how hard it is to get a succubus to fall in love? Once we're in, we're in. You. Are. Stuck with me."
Lauren sniffled a little, her tears finally running empty. Bo rubbed her back anyway. "Then what?"
"Well… you must've read up on Succubi. Maybe before bed, like a giant pervert?"
Lauren giggled through her tears. "Yeah. And I have a little firsthand knowledge as well."
"We're not exactly monogamous. I'm not going to keep you all to myself. Let's wake Nadia up and find out if she wants to share."
"That's… God, Bo. That's crazy."
"You've been working for elves. I sex people to death. On that scale, this is only 'watching Michael Bay movies' crazy. It's not like I want us to do a Sweded version of Wild Things. If I only get you when she's in the shower, then that's enough."
"It wouldn't be enough for me," Lauren replied. She finally pulled away, drying her eyes with the sleeve of her lab coat. Bo smiled affectionately. It was amazing that Lauren could make her feel so lustful, so absolutely turned on, and still be so adorable.
"We'll save her. We'll talk to her. Whatever happens, we'll work it out."
"Wanna hear something funny? I can't wait for you to meet her. Nadia's the only person I've ever known who can measure up to you."
"Maybe she can give me a few tips for the next time we…" Bo just smiled. Lauren dipped her head, hiding her own. And Bo touched her chin, raising it up, exposing her wonderful smile to the world. Lauren wasn't the Ash's anymore; if anything, she was Bo's. And she would never have to hide who she was or how she felt again.
It was a thought happy enough for Bo to mark with a kiss.
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Date: 2011-11-04 05:36 pm (UTC)Loved it
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Date: 2011-11-04 11:48 pm (UTC)Really, other people actually watch this? I thought it was just me. AND you wrote fantastic fic to it! The characterization is spot on and the story is great. I really hope you decide to write more.
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Date: 2011-11-13 09:06 am (UTC)Great work!
Thanks for sharing it.
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Date: 2013-02-01 10:09 pm (UTC)Great line, and the conclusion gave me warm fuzzies. Thanks for sharing!